I don't know why sometimes people think that they can rule the world, and can do whatever they want.

Having everything in the world where in REALITY they have nothing at all.

It's because of their own behaviour which led them to undergo undesirable consequences, and they will strongly believe it's due to external factors, anything but themselves. Ego-minded much? I don't really can comprehend.

The immaturity of the mind can really cause a huge impact on others, and seeing how everyone also suffer due to this person's ranting and childish, or even loser-ish behaviour, is or already has been taking a toll on everyone. I can say it is one of the main disruptions in MY life.

This additional stress is uncalled for since I have already manymanymany other worries to deal with. And yet I have that little flame call hope twinkling away, fighting against the huge waves of disappointment, that has extinguished the flame over and over again.

And I think it burned out, long time ago. No matter how much I don't want to, it constantly reminded me on how I numbed from relationships.

ALL relationships.

Maybe this is why Im so busy with my life, because I cant do anything with my own pathetic life. I don;t have the luxury of many things like everyone else. Im so overly-involved in many activities, maybe because I want to feel involved and I want to control what I can do. My academics, my committee, making people happy. Making myself happy, maybe.

Yes there's improvement and Im really happy for you, and I can feel you changing for the better. I really thankful to God and it put a smile on my heart. But sometime the decisions you make, the actions you take is totally intolerable.

Tears been shed, Cries been done, Shouts and rants rumbled, Fists been used, Hearts been bled, Prayers been muttered, what else? What else.

Escape from the world.

made my plan. join me?
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